I’m holding lots and lots of grudges, some years old and that I’ve forgotten what caused them and in some cases I forget I have a grudge against someone and am perfectly fine with them until I see something that reminds me of it.
Hi! I’m Madison, the f**ked up daughter of high achieving parents and amazing siblings. I have extreme social anxiety/panic attacks, am, at best, average in so many ways, and feel like a failure most of the time. But enough about me, how are you? :)
OK, so like my go to setting is self-hate/defensive but I’m not a bad person, just someone who is bad at personing. If you reach out to me then expect all teeth and claws and nastiness and spite. It’s my default setting. I wish it wasn’t. But it is. Please know that but try anyway.
No bitterness remains, no complaints linger—
My heart has turned old wounds into blossoms.
What passed has become a song,
Now there’s no grudge, only light within.